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But wait! There's more! Pt. 2

So, yesterday was my birthday. Aside from the minor inconvenience of having to renew my driver's license at the last minute, the day was going ok. Until just after 5pm, when my most snuggly wonderful cat began to yowl loudly and insistently from where he was laying in the family room. He was unable to walk because his back legs stopped working. We took him to the emergency vet closest to our house and were immediately sent to the super-duper emergency vet a little farther away. My cat was diagnosed with a heart condition 7 months ago (Grade 4 murmur + hypertrophic cardiomyopathy) but we thought we would have more time with him since the vet put him on medications to control the symptoms. Well, a clot broke off last night and lodged the spot his main artery splits to his back legs. He was paralyzed and in incredible pain (despite the pain meds) so we made the decision to say goodbye. Last night was fucking awful.

And then today, I woke up looking look I had an allergic reaction to something. My eyes were so puffy they were uncomfortable to open but I had scheduled my baseline ultrasound for 8:15am, so I employed the use of Preparation H and cold spoons. I got the swelling to shrink to a less embarrassing level and left for the doctor. I was also overdue for another super uncomfortable water ultrasound so they did that after the baseline and it turns out I may have a fucking uterine polyp, which could account for the recurrent failures of both the IVF's and the IUI's. This will require a procedure to remove. My transfer is scheduled for December 19th, so this procedure needs to be soon.

Also, I have my colonoscopy in a week. Plus we are going out of town for Thanksgiving. Plus tests and finals next week. Plus husband being out of town for work next week. Plus regular household shit. Plus life. Plus existence.

Also, right now I'm late for my son's Thanksgiving party at school because
I      just      needed     a     fucking     minute.

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